"i'm still here"
Despite the growing fear, all you could say was "I'm still here."
And my mind said, "you're right, but I'm broken and you're here just for now."
And my soul said, "you're right, but I'm far too deep for somebody who wants to take things slow."
And my heart said, "you're right, but I've built these walls and all you've seen is the graffiti people have left on the outside, and I think that scared you."
You're still here.
Just for now.
That's all I could tell myself. That love like this is temporary. Love like this doesn't exist. Love like this won't last forever.
Imperfect, flawed, tattered, broken, insufficient, indescribably fractured, incomplete, damaged, shattered, unfinished, unfitted, unsatisfactory,
this misfitted puzzle piece,
am I enough????
When are you going to leave?
Despite this growing fear, you whispered into my neck, "I'm still here."
And my mind said "You're right, and that is enough, and I'm still here too, and I'm not going anywhere."
And my soul said "you're right, and you have experienced all these waves of sorrow we built a boat together to stay afloat."
And my heart said "you're right, and I love you, and I'm still beating for you. You know there are walls, but you painted over the graffiti and built a roof and made a home."
You're still here. Unlike the others, you didn't run. You haven't gone anywhere.
You're still here, continuing to be a constant, a life preserver, a steady buddy, an unwavering friend, a pal, a best friend, a comforter,
my best friend.
We are not deemed broken through a break.
You're still here. You're still here. You're still here.
Every heart beat sings "You're still here
you're still here
you're still here..." pumping blood through my restless, worrisome veins.
A lullaby through the distilled fears.
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